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[17 Nov 2009|03:29pm] |
I feel like I'm losing my damn mind.
Everything is going so quickly...I feel like college is basically over, and simultaneously I'm overwhelmed with options and terrified of not having anything useful to do with myself, or picking the wrong option and getting stuck in a crappy path and feeling like I'm missing out.
I've way too much caffeine today. I have coffee jitters. Meh.
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[27 Apr 2009|12:49am] |
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It's far too hot to sleep in my room.
It feels like summer.
I've got a sprig of lilac in a cup and the smell is filling up the whole room and it's beautiful and it reminds me of long summer nights at home.
I'll be home for good in ten days.
This song feels really right at the moment.
"Breathing in the night
There's nothing else I'm needing now
The wind is at my side
And so are you
And together we will rise
Above all these word and promises we couldn't keep,
Together we will fly above it all
But sometimes we will fall...
From the light
But it shines on us tonight...
And together we will rise
And surely it's a sign now,
That everything's in tune to some kind of higher plan
Surely it's a sign
That you were right...
And there's the secret line
That we've been denied...
But we're crossing it tonight
And together we will rise
Sometimes we will fall,
from the light
But it shines on us tonight
And together we will rise
Pass this line
That we're crossing here tonight
And together we will rise"
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| random musical ranting. |
[15 Apr 2009|02:05pm] |
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I've been listening to a lot of 'soft' music lately, stuff along the cat stevens/elliot smith kind of line, and listening to the Once soundtrack a lot. It's amazing. So I decided to look more into Glen Hansard, and oh my god, The Frames. Their album 'The Roads Outgrown' is the perfect rainy gray april tea drinking essay writing poetry reading music. Thank you, Glen Hansard. Thank you for making my gray homework filled afternoons more tolerable.
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[29 Mar 2009|06:07pm] |
God what a stressful week this has been
Housing turned into a giant shit-mess really fast...Brie and I spent two or three hours a piece on the phone with our parents Tuesday night trying to work things out. Brie's mom didn't want her to live off campus at all, especially not since we would have to sign a lease so quickly. My parents didn't want to lend me money for the security deposit since the house was next to K.C, It was a big giant mess which ended with me getting my parents to loan me the money and calling the landlord to tell her to get the lease ready for us to sign just in time for Brie's mom to veto the whole thing. So, instead, Brie and I are living in an on campus apartment next year. We're sharing a double, and the apartment has three other singles in it and we have no idea who we'll be living with, so that kind of sucks, but my friends Sarah, Anya, and Jenna B are living on our floor, so maybe it'll work out. Whatever.
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| "Dos cuerpos por una sola miel derrotados." |
[23 Mar 2009|10:24pm] |
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Brie, Rose and I are involved in a last minute scramble for an off campus hour which is stressing me out royally. We're going to look at one at two tomorrow and I feel really overwhelmed...like, I'm not old/mature enough for this, which I know is false, but still. From what we know of the house so far, it's really good (too good, actually, which has led Jewell to decide that the house must be haunted by the ravenous souls of the restless undead). We'll see what comes of that.
Equally stress inducing is course selection ,as pretty much NONE of the classes I need are offered next semester. Delightful. I have a meeting with my adviser next Monday to try and get it figured out and some time between then and now I have to see the chair of anthropology about a self designed major? On top of, you know, actually keeping up with the steadily increasing amount of school work that I am just barely keeping up with.
But somehow, in spite of all that, I'm in a decent mood- I'm stressed about the house, but at least I'm taking initiative and if it works out I WILL HAVE MY OWN HOUSE. Which is pretty freakin' sweet. And class selection sucks, but hey, again, at least I'm taking initiative, which is kind of a big deal for me as I have a tenancy towards "situation paralysis" or whatever it's called where when I hit a certain level of stress my instinctive reaction is to curl up in a little ball and ignore all problems until they miraculously go away on their own (this approach DOES NOT WORK and is the cause of my sad GPA.) So, yeah, in general I would say that I'm optimistically overwhelmed.
P.S- Who wants to go see The Decemberists with me? Somebody?...anybody?...please?
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[10 Mar 2009|02:17pm] |
I am officially in love with Dave End. He opened for Kimya last night and is fabulous- I bought both his CDs and all the songs are sweet and low quality and catchy.
I've been spending most of my spring break wandering around in my pajamas doing random chores...I need to step it up, I feel this crazy urge to be more productive and get a lot of stuff done while I have the time, but my thoughts are all scattered and disorganized. I think I need to make some lists- that always helps in a weird way.
I am queen of random pointless updates.
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| Time for streesssssss |
[24 Feb 2009|11:14pm] |
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Just found out a half hour ago that I will be going to Power Shift in D.C this weekend....which is incredibly awesome, but now I'm spazing about getting all my work done/packing/getting money from my parents. Time to get busy busy busy!
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| EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! |
[05 Jan 2009|06:58pm] |
The welcome back concert at TCNJ is Brand New.
I think I just jizzed in my pants.
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[18 Dec 2008|11:47am] |
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So, I've been home since Friday, but haven't done anything except lay around and go to work because promptly upon returning home I contracted the obnoxious cold of misery that my mom, dad, and sister all had. I'm very rarely sick so this is really crappy timing because I really want to be out and about with all my lovely friends who I miss so much. But it's not all bad, I've done lots of fun christmasy stuff with my mom- watching Christmas classics, drinking hot coco, etc. That, and watch CSI. Tons and tons and tons of CSI. My mind is stuffed with crappy dialogue vaguely intriguing forensics. But I'm feeling mostly better, so soon I shall emerge into the outside world and demand funtimes. Mwahahaha.
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[15 Oct 2008|01:50pm] |
As much as I loved seeing everyone over fall break, I always love coming back to school.
Despite the fact that I have an insane amount of work to do over the next few weeks, and I'm already somewhat disastrously behind. Bleh.
Course registration for spring semester is coming, which means I need to make an appointment with my adviser since I'm still technically an open options student. I'm thinking it's as good a time as any to declare a major, but I'm hesitant because...well, I'm petrified of making a choice I'm going to regret later and being stuck with it. Meh.
In shallower news, I need to lose weight like whoa. My clothes are starting to not fit right, and that, I simply will not tolerate.
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[07 Oct 2008|11:49pm] |
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Wall-e is officially the cutest movie of all time.
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[26 Aug 2008|05:16pm] |
So, I'm back at school and it feels so good to be here. I can't wait for classes/activities to get going so I can feel like I'm accomplishing something. My goals for this semester are to be more involved in certain clubs ( ACT, PSA, Water Watch, and Amnesty, mainly) and to get all A's. I am really seriously hoping to accomplish both those goals.
My sleep schedule is still all funky and I keep getting really sleepy in the middle of the day. It's obnoxious.
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| Leaving on a jet plane....Ooooh the cliche! |
[04 Aug 2008|09:19am] |
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So, in a mere few hours I'm off to europe....I'm so unbelievably nervous and scared and yet at the same time disbelieving, like, no way are we actually going. It's so strange. I'm gonna miss you all! But hopefully it'll be awesome and I'll take tons of pictures and then make you all look at them. Mwahahaha.
*LOVE*
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[24 Apr 2008|12:56am] |
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I'm cranky and lonely and I can't sleep and tcnj is a suffocating microcosm sometimes...rawr.
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| plaaaaaaaay with meeeeeeeeeeeeeee... |
[27 Feb 2008|01:50am] |
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My spring break starts on the seventh and is a week long. When do you guys have break? I desire your collective sweet lovins.
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| FUCK.THAT. SHIT. |
[28 Jan 2008|04:44pm] |
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The point being that right now I have no idea what I'm going to do with my life and I spend an increasing amount of time agonizing over planning out every little detail of my future. Well, screw that. What I want from life is to experience and learn as much as possible.I want to enjoy the big adventure and the little everyday things. I want to scuba dive the great barrier reef and explore Mayan temples. I want to see the sun set behind mosques in Jordan and watch it rise over the gulf of Mexico. I want to speak as many languages as possible, have sex outdoors,revel in the smell of old books, drive with the windows down and the music up,have my own apartment,never have any tan lines,talk to strangers, save someone else's life, break a bone, try fugu,learn to dance, get lost, learn to pray, invent myself, stay out and watch meteors, run for my life. I want to learn origami and take random road trips to ghost towns in the pine barrens,make mistakes, swim in the ocean in the dead of winter, stay up all night laughing with people I love,have a garden, try (almost) everything once, live,learn,love laugh, scream, cry, create and go a little crazy.Sure, I'll need a job so that I can have money to spend a month in europe or a weekend in Petra. But I want to enjoy my job too. When I get to be old-if I get to be old- I don't want to look around me and say "Wow, I have lots of money and two cars and a big house." I want to look around and say "wow, there's nothing I regret or wish that I had done while I had the chance." I know there will be the bad days and the dull moments, the normal times and the inevitable uneventful. But overall, I want my life to be one that's worth living. And maybe I'm young and rash and idealistic. But I don't care. I want every day to be an adventure in some way. I want to go everywhere and do everything. And I NEVER, EVER, want to be bored.
So.
Who's with me?
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[26 Jan 2008|04:44pm] |
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Luke, Greg and Kyle are coming to visit me at school. Yaaaaay! :-D
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[25 Jan 2008|03:49pm] |
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I love all my classes so far, and my professors are awesome. In drawing today my professor went on a random tangent about science and how we're all made of stuff that came from stars...very inspiring and cool. And I've been listening to tons of kimya dawson, so I'm in a pretty decent mood today. Yayness.
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[15 Dec 2007|10:59am] |
I am severely tired of feeling like I'm not good enough
or like there is something wrong with me.
Even though it is probably no one's fault but my own.
I haven't felt this shitty in a long time.
Argh argh raaaaaawr.
That is all.
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